Sapphire and Faded Jeans

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 14:58:57 GMT

HI everyone, haha I just had the urge to update here. In case you all didn't know, I still read my friends' pages everyday :D. So anyway life's been guuuud. Busy with PW in school but I honestly prefer this timetable cos at least there's only PW to worry about and not any other subject.

Totally dreading the 16th of nov, cos that's when I get the confirmation if I'm retaining or not. I have hope at least since I passed everything except my H1. So if I make it, next year's gonna be one helluva ride with A levels and stuff, BIG SIGH.

Speaking of which, good luck to those doing their A's!

Okay bye.

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Mon, 19 Oct 2009 14:40:23 GMT

Hey guys, catch me at :

http://sevenblackroses.onsugar.com

I needed a change and a new space, so I've moved! Don't delete me off your friends list though, I'll still update this space once in awhile and I still wanna read your pages on my friends page.

See ya'll!

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 18:12:30 GMT

I guess today was the day of good news :

1. Found out that everyone in class passed GP, which means that I did too! On top of my B for Malay, I guess I'm pretty much safe for H1s.
    Just need a 30% for Chemistry!
2. Sonia (a TSD senior) asked me and Rui Shan to audition for a role in a play at the Arts House. Will be an awesome experience, I always
   wanted to perform and not just for school stuff. But the American accent part is scaring me. Still pretty much confused about it but I might
   just auditon cos what the heck, I have nothing to lose. Even if I don't get the part at least I tried. I like trying.

So I thought today would be a long draggy Friday because of the Peer Counselling training but it flew by. Had lunch before that with Hafiz and his friends and I am officially sick of fast food. Got my peer counsellor badge, it's gay, hahaha. Training ended pretty early and I rushed back home to bathe and get changed after which I met my bff Sofia! Cabbed down to Parkway to meet Pierrson and Chris and Kristian joined us later. Had dinner at Pasta Mania, then played L4D. Actually, they played. Cos I don't know how to and it would be a waste of money and I would be messing up the whole game for them. So I just watched and fell asleep. Stayed at Parkway till 11 plus and bussed back home. I had fun today. It's refreshing to meet up with old friends. And it was a temporary escape from the fact that results are on Tuesday and it's gonna determine my fate!

I'm pretty tired right now and it's way past bedtime. Looks like I'm sleeping in tomorrow. Oh and I wanna change blogs. I dunno, it feels like I have no inspiration to write here, just look at my dull and boring posts. Perhaps a new page would make me write better. But I don't feel like letting go of this because it has so many memories.

Okay I am such a confused child.

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Thu, 15 Oct 2009 12:40:58 GMT

I feel like I'm losing you.

gonna be a party

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 13:44:04 GMT

Jalan Raya with supposed to be everyone from A02, but only Me, Mega, Amirah, Farah, Nizam, Nasri and Khairiah came.
Ate at every single house omg so bloated! Went from Bedok to Tampines to Pasir Ris and back to Tampines again.
Had fun with my classmates!
Last house was Mega's at around 7plus, and I live the furthest! But Nasri nicely waited for the bus with me haha thank you Nasri!
I was happily sitting down in the bus with my iPod and this big group of people jalan raya-ing came and sat all around me.
At first I was really amused cos I totally blended in with them and I looked like one of them.
But then, they started talking to me, and I guess they were younger than me cos when I said I'm from JC, one of them went "Nevermind, one year difference only."
Whuuttt. They kept asking me to take pictures with them and the boy sitting beside me kept purposely bumping into me!
And one of them asked for my number and I said no.
Hahaha annoying losers.
But the girls were telling me to ignore them. Haha and I think the girls were really pretty!

Okay I am like so full right now. And there's school tomorrow ugh! PW and Malay how exciting. Shall go take a bath and pack my bag and head to bed and dream sweet dreams yay!

Goodnight everybody!

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 13:21:27 GMT

Caught fame today with Steph, Afiqah and Zee. It was okay I guess, but horrible storyline.
Some of the stuff they said was true and relatable thought.
Headed to HMV after to get my Owl City album! Can't wait to give it a listen.
Esplanade library with Steph and Fi for plays, borrowed Midsummer Night's Dream, might do design for that.
Left and made my way to Parkway with the intention of buying Chris his Paramore album and surprise him cos he's always at Starbucks studying, BUT IT WAS SOLD OUT EVERYWHERE!!

Stupid me, should have just gotten it at HMV, how silly.

Oh well, he met me for awhile and sent me to the bus stop.

Jalan Raya tomorrow with A02!

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 11:47:08 GMT

Post promos,
Bbox cleaning yesterday and today Mr K's house with 09A02 for raya gathering.
Been having good days. [:
Owe it to my frends, really.

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 15:45:59 GMT

Navid to Adrianna :
“She’s so far out of my league that I feel like I’m dreaming. … I defy you to look in those eyes and not lose your mind.”

Awwwww.
Okay sorry I'm a sucker for this kind of stuff, sigh.

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 16:46:45 GMT

It's over and done, in just 5 days of exams, Promos is over!
Somerset with the beloved TSD, lunch at LJS, HMV-ing, The Awesomest Ice Cream ever @ Ben and Jerry's Heaven's Loft, and heart to heart talks at Istana Park.
Loved todayyy.

I feel like doing Promos again cos I know I didn't do very well, but oh well.
What's done is done, if I have to take advancement tests then so be it, if I have to retain, then so be it.
Just please let me still go on the Japan trip?

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 09:36:09 GMT

I can finally see that you're right there beside me.
I am not my own, for I have been made new.
Please don't let me go, I desperately need you.
I am not my own, for I have been made new.
Please don't let me go, I desperately need you.

-Meteor Shower

One more paper and I'm done with Promos. I just hope whatever I studied is enough to get me the passes I need to move on to J2. But after tomorrow I shall not think about it until after marking days. Hahaha. Gonna binge on B&Js at Heaven's Loft with the theatre kids after the theatre studies theory paper which I can already sense will kill my brain cells.

Gonna start making plans! Anyone wanna go out with me? Hehehehe.

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 09:09:30 GMT

I remember when we first got together, we had our first fight after 3-4 months. Why can't things be like that now?

This is the reason why I strongly believe that a relationship gets more vulnerable after knowing the person longer, or when you get closer. Maybe this is why I don't trust people.

I'm sorry I'm not that strong.

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 14:55:45 GMT

F*** this.
I'm not going to pass Chem.
There's a possibility I might retain.
Next year, another year in JC1, without Theatre Studies.
I don't think I will have the will to stay in college without Theatre Studies.

Fri, 02 Oct 2009 16:43:00 GMT

90210!
Yes, despite it being Promos period I indulged myself with 90210 and I must say Silver and Adrianna are looking so much hotter with their new hair, omg jeaaaalouuuzzzzz.
ANYWAY, done with GP and History today. Don't wanna talk about how it went cos I'm only aiming for a pass for everything so you can imagine what my grades will look like.
E,E,E,E,E,E,E,E,E....
Yet I will be contented.
I mean you have to be a total genius to get an A in J.C.
No paper on Monday and Chem on tuesday omg gonna die, I hate chem, it's like my brain has not been functioned to do Math or Science.
Especially Math.
I was doing Energetics questions just now, trying to find the order of reaction and I couldn't solve it so I asked my sister and she said..
"YOU HAVE TO USE LON."
OMG I TOTALLY DIED ON THE SPOT I SWEAR.
How the heck would I know how to use it when I don't take Math anymore?
And my Add Math background for one year is completely useless cos I didn't learn anything.
Shall bombard my tuition teacher with questions on how to solve it without ln.
Or if any kind soul would like to help me, the help is greatly appreciated.

You know what, I think I'ma go sleep early tonight!

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 15:40:22 GMT

Dear God,

I know I'm not the holiest person on Earth, in fact i'm far from that. I tend to only turn to You when I need You, or when I want something in my life. That's not the way I should be.

But right now, I need You more than ever. Exams are in 2 days, and my brain just cannot absorb whatever I need to know. There are so many distractions, so many facts, concepts, that I simply cannot understand. Dear God, I pray that You will help me see clarity, and help me to motivate myself to do my best. I might not be able to make it to another year of college, but I pray that You will help me in just studying as much as I can, in these few days. Help me to keep composed and relaxed. And clear my mind as I do my papers. Even if I don't make it to next year, I pray that You will lead me in the right path, and help me to make a right decision on whether to repeat another year and give it another shot, or give up and go to Poly. Perhaps I would do better there. Whatever happens, I know that You have planned my life for me. And I even if I fall, You'll always be there to guide me back up.

And dear God, please help me to eliminate problems occuring in my relationship. Please help me to make things better, but if I can't, please help me to put this aside and focus on my examinations. Please help * to stop feeling upset. And please help him to open up to me, so that I can understand more, and help him feel better. I don't know where I'm heading with this, or what's going to happen. Please be there for me. Help me to stay strong, and not crumble against the weight of everything.

You are all I have, and You are the only one who won't turn your back on me, because You love me, despite everything that I've done. Going astray from religion, disrespecting my elders...Please help me to get back on the right track.

Amin.

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hung over

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 10:46:32 GMT

I bring good news!!!

My dad approved of me going to Japan!

Yup, so it's confirmed. Oh and Mega got it too! That makes it a hundred times better, we're going to have so much fun! But there's evening GP lessons though, hahaha. But whatever, it's still Japan! AND WINTER!

So looks like I have something to look forward to after Promos and stupid PW and Malay A Levels.

Today went over to Zain's with Chris. Ate an ondeh-ondeh. Yes, AN ondeh-ondeh, cos I only ate one. HAHA. He dropped us off at Parkway after that, hung around for awhile then headed home cos I'm going to study! Oh, I am never getting into a car with Zain ever again. I swear when the car stopped, I was stunned for like 5 seconds.

Time to conquer the Indo-Pakistan war!

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 04:16:59 GMT

Airis, my niece, such a doll!

Anyway, I have not been updating much, I know. Cos basically I have nothing much to say, my life revolves around school, and it's so boring to blog about my school life every single day.

Oh well.

Today I'm going to study the whole day, FINALLY.

(Yes I know I'm starting so late to study for Promos)

TSD IS Practical on Wednesday, not prepared at all.

Just hope I scrape through.

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 12:19:09 GMT

Hiiii, okay quick update cos I have a shitload of work to do (What's new?) !!

Okay so basically I had a good time this Hari Raya, visiting relatives, stuffing my face with food, and collecting money. Travelling was made so much easier this year cos we borrowed my Uncle Roger's car and my dad and my sister took turns driving. Nice to see relatives from my Mum's side (my dad is eurasian and his family is Catholic so they don't celebrate raya), again cos we only meet once a year.

There's not much to say, really. So I'll just upload a few pictures, A FEW, cos I am a lazy cow who only wants to eat and sleep.

Okay my pictures are taking damn long to load, so that's it! More on facebook!

Off to bury myself in homework. My Lit tutor is getting too much, writing an essay for homework for every tutorial...seriously. And you know I think it's funny how people complain that they have no time. But seriously, you guys are so lucky you don't have TSD. Doing TSD is seriously the meaning of NO TIME.

Oh and I have to say this, as much as I love TSD, I hate sacrificing my longer sleep on Wednesdays just to go to school early and do things like cleaning the Black Box.

I'm sorry. (HAHA)

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 14:52:00 GMT

Had dinner with my cousin and my sister yesterday at Ramen-Ten,
then we had frozen yoghurt at Frolick!
Then caught The Ugly Truth, which was good, funny as hell.

I saved money the entire week, and guess what? It's all gone. Hahahaha. Mostly on food, I'm a pig, I swear.
To prove my point, I had tuition this morning, and after that I slept all the way till 6.
Sheesh.
Met Chris just now, accompanied him for dinner then we went for a walk.

OH OH OH AND,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

I'm so excited to go visit my Mum's side of the family and eat Malay food and get MONEY!

(I'll worry about promos later)

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 09:01:00 GMT

HAIR.

All my life, I've had problems with my hair. In primary school, I was the kid with the curly, frizzy hair.
In secondary school, it was pretty much the same until I rebonded it.
But I've had a good share of bad hair moments.
From frizzy, dry, tangled, and bad hairstyles.
You know your bad hair days? Yeah, everyday is a bad hair day for me.
And today, it became worse.
I went to the hairdresser to trim my bangs cos everyone's saying is weird etc.etc, and I ended up spending 77 bucks.
Apparently, I have a skin problem.
Because of my thick hair, my scalp has allergies now.
If I don't take care of my hair, I will suffer from hair loss in 2 years.
So from today onwards, my hair routine is wash, medication, spray vitamin, serum.

On top of that, I have to deal with my dry hair.
Sometimes I'm just so tempted to pick up my scissors and just snip everything off.
Just for one point of my life, I want nice, luscious, HEALTHY hair.
But I won't get it.
It makes me feel extremely ugly.

So for all the girls with beautiful hair,

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW LUCKY YOU ARE.

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 14:36:22 GMT

Sometimes I think about people I miss and wonder if they miss me too. It's not a very nice feeling to watch everyone go about life as if you were never once a part their lives. But I guess one sad thing about life is that people walk in and out of it, and we have to accept that fact and move on.

I am immensely greatful for the new friends I have made in school. My classmates...my TSD classmates...and others..I love them all to death. These are the people who make school bearable. I realised that in college now, I have more friends than I did in secondary school, probably because I am more open and less shy and hermit-like. But in secondary school, I had more close friends. But I am contented with the people in my life right now, and I look forward to spending my college years with them, and graduating with them. I guess when one friend leaves, that just creates room for a new friend.

I am also immensely immensely immensely gratetful to have Chris in my life. He has been the only one whom I confide in, the only one who puts up with my nonsense, and the only one who understands me fully, and the only one whom I think of talking to whenever I feel down. Honestly, without him, I think my life would be a wreck. I'll probably go ballistic at all the emotions I keep to myself.

Okay, being a little too cheesy here, haha.

Well, I just want to end of by saying, that though I wish some people would call/text/MSN/facebook/twitter (sheesh, it's the 21st century! Communication is so easy!) more often, I will always be here when they do.

P.S : Elizabeth, you're such an awesome best friend too! And I miss having you around in school.

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 16:08:33 GMT

I came across this on a photo on Tumblr :

"Those who say Disneyland is the happiest place on Earth have not been in your arms."

So sweet right!

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 08:00:26 GMT

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why.

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 17:06:56 GMT

Sigh. What a romantic picture. I miss the "honeymoon periods".

ANYWAY,
Went to NYP to watch their production with Chris today, met Sofia for awhile later.
Headed to Ion with Chris after that, Ion confuses me, hmpf.
Followed him to eat, then went to Marina to meet Hamid, Ruishan and Rachel for dinner, but in the end just took away macs and sat somewhere to eat cos we had no time.
Steph and Su met us and we went for Woyzeck,
was absolutely spectacular, really.
Totally worth my 21 bucks, yes I paid student price hehehe.
Macs (again) for supper after that, Rachel treated me and Hamid to ice cream, thanks rachel!
Yup then home after that.

Shit this is getting boring, my life is getting boring.
How depressing.

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 15:47:35 GMT

(The only photo we took today, thank you old uncle who took it for us!)

Had a good day today! Supposed to watch Coco Before Chanel with Khai and Mega, but we missed the movie.
So Khai and I bought tickets for The Time Traveller's Wife instead.
While waiting for Mega to come, we went to play at the arcade, hahaha.
Time crisis! (I think that's the name of the game)
I thought I suck, but I didn't die first (hehehe)
Mega finally came!
The movie was seriously good.
Damn saaaaaddd, and touching!
After the movie, broke fast at Pasta mania!
Was so full after that, hahaha.

Tomorrow gonna be a busy day, NYP's production and Woyzeck at Esplanade.
Don't ask me how I am going to complete my holiday homework.
(I haven't even started)

Feel like going for a walk now.

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 04:35:53 GMT

Caught "I love you, Beth Cooper" yesterday with Chris.
Was a good movie!
Left for Buena Vista around 5 plus to meet the TSD clan.
Went to ACJC to watch their "Inventio".
Kinda good!
After that grabbed a bit from City Hall Burger King and left for homeeee.

I think I'm getting used to my hair now. I mean, it's not that bad. And after all, I'm used to this. I am the queen of bad hair.
Today's gonna be a day staying at home and STUDYING.

Guudddbyee.